Medicated Mind

Wondering about the title of this blog? Well I woke up this morning with the familiar ache in my chest again. If you all don't know, I suffer from fibromyalgia and (more specifically) costochronditis...

(fibromyalgia - chronic disorder characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain, fatigue, and tenderness in localized areas)

(costochronditis - inflammation at the junction of a rib and its cartilage)

So, now than you have a simple enough understanding as to what these are.. let me put it this way.. the last time it acted up bad enough to wake me, I ended up driving to the hospital at 3AM, because I thought I was having a heart attack.. they did EKG's and an x-ray on my chest, to make sure I didn't have anything else going on, and you could literally see the cartilage of my rib cage inflamed around my ribs so bad, that it looked like it was wrapping around each one... (well, only the right side.. )

so they put me on methylprednasone (a steroid they give to cancer patients, to reduce inflammation) and something I've grown to really rely on, Tramadol (centrally-acting analgesic, used for treating moderate to moderately severe pain. The drug has a wide range of applications, including treatment for restless leg syndrome, acid reflux, and fibromyosis)

Centrally acting means it goes straight to your brain and blocks off pain.. ok.. so all of that to tell you that I took two of the pills this morning, when I woke up with the pain.. (which, two is the max you can take at once) and I seem to be a bit discombobulated, but my focus is like BAM. I can't remember a time when my mind had such clarity. I could probably learn at an unbelievable pace, right now...

At the same time, I feel almost.. not out of body.. but it almost feels like vertigo.. I'm not dizzy, but I feel.. displaced? It's one of the strangest feelings I've ever had.. but this is the first time Ive ever taken two Tramadol at one time.. and I feel no pain, that's for sure, but I'm also operating at a much higher level than I have operated at since I was in school..

For once, I feel quite fantastic. Like nothing in the world can hold me down.. like I can do great things, no, like Im destined to do great things. Now I just have to figure out what those things are...

I leave you with a song.. A song that everyone needs to hear from time to time..


Anonymous said…
NO WAY! My brother and I used to jam to this in the desert when we lived in Blythe, CA, and I have been trying to remember it since! You are fucking awesome Jessica!!!
This is Bill, FYI.

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